Life is hard. Life becomes harder when you have survived a traumatic event. You try and stay strong for your family, friends and the world. You forget that you are in the equation and without you, survival will never take place. Being strong for others becomes only a part of the race.
Most persons with PTSD don’t want to just survive. Being strong becomes a way of life. It has for me in many ways.
As a survivor, strength is something I heavily rely on daily. It takes mental strength for me to do something positive daily. That starts with me waking up. I have to spiritually believe God to wake me, give me wisdom for that day, strengthen me to carry out the physical part of the day and emotionally prepare me for what will happen throughout the day. This can be draining without God.
For one thing, my belief system has God at the center. Everything radiates from Him. I trust him to guide me daily in all that I do. I receive my strength from Him. My survival is based on Him.
When trauma entered my life, I was too busy making sure those around me did not suffer. The results of that lead to C-PTSD. For many years, I isolated, self-abused, victimized myself for being a victim, and made excuses for the perpetrator. I stopped relying on and trusting in God as my source of healing. PTSD took its toll on me.
I am so glad God never gave up on my ability to renew my faith in His ability to heal me. He never left me. He led me to many good sources of humanly support. From there, I learned a lot about myself and I am still learning. Yes, you are strong for surviving. Yes, you are strong and you are a survivor. What you must remember is this: you are not strong or surviving all alone. There are people who show up every day to make sure you stay strong and for me, it is God who strengthens me through Christ to survive. Philippians 4:13.
Until next time,
II Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.