Growing can be and is a pain! I hate it! I didn’t go through a metamorphosis. I was an adult as long as I can remember. I had to handle this or solve that. Get someone under control or make sure you cook that!
There are 6 of us; my two sisters and I had to care for the younger ones. It’s a common thing in single households. That includes if you have a father or stepfather who has checked out (if you know what I mean).
When you have to be a responsible person at such a young age, you forget about all the things a young person is supposed to do between the ages of 10 and 21. When the age 21 came along, I was already in that fated relationship.
I soon got married, had children, divorced and was about to move on when tragedy hit. I approached everything as an adult would have.
Later, which is now, I would have gone to many Psychiatrists and spoken to numerous therapists. I told myself “This is it! The last stop! If this doctor and therapist can not help me, I will just resign to never grow past this stuck point!”
The therapist turned out to teach a different type healing of which I had never been taught throughout the 20 years. I found that I was making some progress, but I was in a metamorphic phase. I was excited! I was after all transforming. I didn’t have to stay in the cocoon of despair for the rest of my life. I was never going to return to my 12 year old self, but I could heal the wounds from that time. I could pluck up and discard of those dried out roots and replace them with new more beautiful seeds that would grow into whole plants.
It would not be easy, but with nurturing the seed would grow and produce fruit. Fruit I could pick from and eat daily. I would grow. I would be able to leave behind those things that caused pain. Realizing that growing is a pain that anyone can get through!
Until next time,
You may be an ugly caterpillar right now, but soon you will be a beautiful butterfly!